Saturday, August 15, 2009

El Roi


El Roi, El Roi! God sees me! When I'm overwhelmed, sad, frustrated, anxious...God sees me. And some how that makes life more bearable.

-- Post From My iPhone

Friday, July 24, 2009

Here we go!

I love this. From the Amplified Version of the Bible.

For my dertermined purpose is that I may know Him, that I may progressively become more deeply and intimately acquanted with Him, perceiving and recognizing and understanding the wonders of His Person more strongly and more clearly. ~ Philippians 3:10

I am embarking on a great journey. Every day keeping my eyes wide open for direction and wisdom. In a few short weeks I will start classes at Pittsburgh Theological Seminary. I will be working toward a Master of Divinity.

At the beginning of June, after many conversations with incredible friends, I applied to PTS. Not sure if I would take classes part-time or full-time I left that answer to God. I didn't tell many others so I wouldn't have to tell them I changed my mind or they didn't accept my application. My mum took care of that. She told all kinds of family and friends.
The middle of July came and it was confirmed that I will be unemployed and a full-time student. YAY!!!! I have dreamed of this. And to finally be taking these steps is an amazing feeling.
More on my journey soon!

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Answers to the question 'WHY'

Are you a big 'why' asker? I feel like I have asked the question a lot in the last several years.



(From me to God)

Why am I here? Why did this happen? Why did that happen? Why has nothing happened?



And from there more questions are born.



(More from me to God)

When will something happen? Are you going to answer me? What am I doing? Can you just answer me already? Was that really necessary for me to go through? What next? Seriously?



Then when the answer finally comes you're a little afraid of it.



(God speaking)

No. Wait. That is not pleasing to me. It's my plan not yours.



Which means you have to trust that God will provide for you because you're walking in His purpose.

Monday, July 6, 2009

Whirlwind

Can I just say..."WOW"...! I will fill you in soon. But for now...WOW!

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Not it!

The one who calls you is faithful and He will do it. 1 Thessalonians 5:24


I've been spending a lot of free time with God the last several weeks. I heard God telling me that he needed my attention. You could say that, like in most relationships, this was a needed time to remember why we love each other. I needed to hear from God exactly why he loves me and how he loves me. I also needed reminded why it is that I love him.

It can happen to all of us. We get caught up in other things. We neglect those we love most. We can even get to the point that we just stop loving. It's a dangerous and scary place to be. Avoid it friends. Don't go there. Don't go anywhere near there.

Hold tight to God. See the way he loves and love. Give the way he gives. Be strong and let the persecution come. Make it known that it's because of Christ that you love and give. God calls us by a very Great Commandment and a very Great Commission. And the one who calls you is faithful and He will do it!

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

She's got style, she's got class...

Wow! What a lady. Today would be Aunt Dottie's 86th birthday. She died last Friday while in hospice care. She had trouble breathing for many years. Even on oxygen she taught a bible study every week. She was a Pastor's wife for 62 years. Her Pastor's last visit with her last week he asked her what she was thinking. She asked him for $10,000. He said that he didn't have it but he would give it to her if he did. He asked her what she would do with $10,000. She said give it to World Relief. He concluded sharing that story with a promise that $10,000 would be raised and given to Luthern World Relief in Dottie Braughler's name.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

No Joke

It finally happened...I met one of my neighbors (no joke). He was mowing the lawn this afternoon. Nikki and I had walked to my house for lunch. As we were heading back to work he commented on my lawn.
we have no lawn mower, the front grass was to our knees (no joke), dandelions were bold and beautiful and obvious, i borrowed my mother's weed wacker to get it to a managable level, it's still needing desperate attention
So Tony offered the use of his lawn mower any time we'd like to borrow it. YES! It really is such a small area that I can't justify buying my own mower. I really hadn't figured out how I was going to do anything about it. And honestly I hadn't made any inquires as to having someone else care for it. Tony to the rescue. I am so glad that I met my neighbor Tony.

Monday, May 11, 2009

The Process Continues




When all kinds of trials crowd into your lives don't resent them as intruders
but welcome them as friends. Realize that they come to test your faith and
produce in you the quality of endurance. But let the process go on until that endurance is fully developed and you become people of mature character, people of integrity, with no weak spots. ~James 1:2-4




We will always have trials. No one is perfect. Remember that the process continues. Learn from it. Your character is at stake.

Friday, April 17, 2009

Are you kidding me?

Okay, so I was reading about Samson in the book of Judges. It has left me with many questions and a few thoughts.



The story of Samson is in Judges 13-16.



Here is my opinion on Samson. I think he was a big guy who always got his way. I think his parents spoiled him instead of teaching him to honor and respect the call upon his life.



He knew he shouldn't have married a Philistine. They were the very group of people that he was to be fighting against. So here is the part that amazes me the most. He totally gives into the women in his life. His wife uses her tears and gets him to give her the answer to the riddle. That means that he has to pay the bet and he leaves his wife for someone else to care for.



Then he falls in love with Delilah. The Philistine rulers approach her and offer her a lot of money to find out what Samson's secret was to his strength. So at first he plays the little game. He gives her a few different reasons that are totaly lies. He's able to free himself from her attempts to subdue him. Even though she had been made a fool several times she continued nagging him. She nagged enough that it completely tired him out and he caved in. He told her his secret. And then he was subdued by the Philistines.



It leaves me feeling sad. Why Samson? Why did you give in? Why God? Why do we give in to the nagging around us? Why do we give in to our weaknesses? Why do we keep you from working through us?



Samson knew there was more he could do though. He knew that God could give him that same strength just by asking him. AND HE DID. God strengthened him one last time.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

March on, my soul; be strong!

So I started reading the book of Judges the other day. Kevin had been talking about Judges over the last few months because he had used it in a series he was preaching with the youth. Every conversation about the book left me curious to read it again. So I picked it up a few mornings ago and decided to start my day with Judges.

The first day I read about fighting. The second day I read about fighting. The third day I read about fighting. I see a pattern developing here. I am not planning any huge battles. I highly doubt God is calling me to lead a large number of people into combat any time soon.

But the first day I found myself thinking about how God calls us to be faithful and obedient. And when we aren't he continues to come to our aide when we call.

The second day I got caught on the line from Deborah's song "March on, my soul; be strong!"(5:21). She's not kidding. This woman is strong. I don't know her physical strength but come on...she was a judge for Israel. The wisdom she possessed is incredible. I want to be that strong!

Today I read about Gideon. He was threshing grain in a wine press so that it wouldn't be stolen from him by the Midianites. An angel of the Lord appears to Gideon and says, "The Lord is with you, mighty warrior." I'm sorry but this guy is threshing grain. He's hiding it so that the Midianites do take it from him. What kind of mighty warrior is he really?

I don't know what Gideon was feeling when he heard those words from the angel. I know if it were me I'd have had those crazy butterfly kind of feelings in my stomach. The kind that can be confused with fear and excitement. This was God calling. And if I was called something like "mighty warrior" I'd be feeling pretty strong. Sometimes all it takes is for people you trust or respect to give you a title or word of confidence.

March on, my soul; be strong!

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

teaching

One of those things that I just love to do is to teach. Every year I take one day and teach a course on Christian Education to a group of people working to be licensed local pastors. Though the work that I have in preparation is very time consuming, the eight hours I spend with these people are priceless. I love getting to know them and their ministry. I love hearing what makes their hearts sing. I love to challenge their thinking. I love helping them see that change is possible because of Christ.

Monday, March 16, 2009

Frustration and Hope

Is there anything more frustrating than realizing you have allowed your hope to be diminshed by frustration?

I am a hope-filled person. I know where my hope comes from and why I have hope. I know that my hope can never be taken away from me. But my hope can be seriously diminished when I allow my frustrations and worries to take over.

I am so thankful for specific friends that, over the last four months, have helped me through conversations to realize more about who I am and how I do things. I'm rather quiet in any kind of meeting. I like to take it all in. I want to share what is important. I'm not interested in taking more time than is needed. I want to be in relationship with others. I would rather fill my day off (or any other day that I can) with coffee and lunch and dinner and a movie with friends than spend the day at home by myself. I tend to be a pleaser as well. My pleasing comes from what I think is being expected of me and not what is actually communicated. That is a big problem. And then there is the issue of my over analization of EVERYTHING. I play things out in my head all the time. I have discussions with people that will never play out the way I'm hearing them. And that is the biggest frustration of all.

For some who know me they see me as a good communicator, meaning that I can hold a conversation and have a lot to say about certain things. For some I am quiet and reserved, meaning I do not have much input on a subject. For some I struggle to communicate, meaning the things that are most important I play out in my head and I worry that I will disappoint. Therefore, I get frustrated with myself. My hope is then greatly diminished. I feel that I have no leg to stand on. And so I remain silent.

Why does this happen? Because I allow fear to grip me. Because I have allowed my hope and confidence in Christ to take a back seat to the tasks that are before me.

NOTHING IS GREATER THAN GOD!

There is no task that should ever distract me from the greatness of God. "I can do all things through Christ who give me strength." (Philippians 4:13)

Enough with the distractions!
Enough with the worry!
Enough with the doubt!
Enough with the fear!
Enough with the frustration!

I have Hope because of Christ!
I have Peace because of Christ!
I have Love because of Christ!
I have Confidence because of Christ!
I am because of Christ!

Friday, February 20, 2009

Glory!

Now all glory to God, who is able through his mighty power at work within us, to
accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think. Eph. 3:20



I can't think of a much better way to start my day than reminding myself of this verse from Ephesians. To understand all that it encompasses about your life and who God is should make any day a great day.
























Tuesday, February 10, 2009

SURPRISE!!!!!!!!!

I love surprises. I absolutely love surprises! I had a conversation last night that was one of the best surprises I've had in ... I couldn't tell you how long.

I've also had a personal epiphany.

I'm so thankful for how God reveals his plan.

Thank you God for your Surprises!

Friday, February 6, 2009

Fear

Fear is crippling!

It is heart wrenching to see someone you love crumbling in their fear. It is utter hopelessness. It is dark and depressing. That's another thing, the depression that accompanies fear is debilitating. The once vibrant, enthusiastic, confident person loses all sense of self and turns into chaos and confusion. The hardest part is that as you see this happening there is nothing you can do to fix this person life. This heart and mind issue is one that has to be revealed to them in a manner that they are ready and able to accept.

Read this verse from the Amplified Bible.
2 Timothy 1:7For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (of cowardice, of craven and cringing and fawning fear), but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of calm and well-balanced mind and discipline and self-control.

I have clung to this promise on many occasions. I have God's spirit within me. Therefore, if I find any timidity, cowardice, or fear within me it is not of God. God's spirit gives me power, love, a calm and well-balanced mind, discipline, and self-control.
PRAISE YOU LORD!
I have needed help along the way. I am so grateful for the opportunities I have to gain insight and wisdom from others who are able to see into my life in ways I am unable.

Pray for those who are lost in their fear. Those who have no hope. Those who do not know Christ and the mighty power he brings to a redeemed life.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Hell or Hope?

So last night I was sharing with a friend the most recent events within my family. A second divorce and this one of 17 years. She proceeded to share with me other friends of hers who have had family tragedies over the last month and a half. Her comment that tied them all together was, "Every thing's going to hell!"


Really? I don't agree. I believe that sin is very real in this fallen world. I believe that Satan has a grand time messing with people's lives. But Satan doesn't get to determine the outcome of the things I'm going through. I've always been a cup-half-full kind of person. There are great things in store for our lives.


Don't think I haven't had my trials. I've been through two parent divorces, the deaths of my Aunt, cousin, and grandparents, depression, and difficultly with life direction. And those are just the obvious things.



I CHOOSE HOPE!


2 Corinthians 4:8-9 We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandone; struck down, but not destroyed.

Friday, January 16, 2009

Love You!

I just wanted to tell you that I love you!

Friday, January 9, 2009

Refreshing or Healing

Revelation 3:14-16

To the angel of the church in Laodicea write:

These are the words of the Amen, the faithful and true witness, the ruler of God's creation. I know your deeds, that you are neither cold nor hot. I wish you were either one or the other! So, because you are lukewarm--neither hot nor cold--I am about to spit you out of my mouth.



It's not very often that we hear a sermon about being lukewarm. But in some recent study I came across some very interesting facts about Laodicea and why Christ would describe these people in this way.



Laodicea did not have their own water supply. Instead they had aqueducts for bringing water into the city. Water came from Colosse's sparkling cold springs, less than 10 miles to the North of Laodicea. It was very refreshing water at the source. Water also came from Hierapolis's theraputic hot springs 7 miles to the South East. By the time the water arrived it was no longer cold or hot but lukewarm. It makes me think of the water bottle that I leave in the car on a sunny day. When I get back into the car and pick up my water it is disgustingly warm. Not hot or even room temperature but stale tasting.



Tell me why we would ever want to be called lukewarm? Why would we want to leave that taste in someone's mouth? Or that feeling?



At this moment I'm not sure if God desires for me to bring refreshment or healing. I need to be ready when he calls on me to be either one. What I do know is that I will not be lukewarm. Though I have been pitiful and blind because of my own 'wealth' I choose to become rich, buying the gold refined by God. (3:17-18)



Listen~

"Those whom I love I rebuke and discipline. So be earnest, and repent. Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me. To him who overcomes, I will give the right to sit with me on my throne, just as I overcame and sat down with my Father on his throne. He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches." (3:19-22)

Friday, January 2, 2009

For Starters

I never thought I'd actually have a blog.

It's rather exciting.

Here are some random thoughts to get things started.

ReDeeMeD
has been one of my favorite words for several years now. I am fascinated by the word and all the meaning that it holds.
I started my fascination with redeemed when I was studying the book of Ruth. I was doing an inductive study with some friends. I was very excited to be diving so deeply into this little book of the bible. I thought it would be fun. To my surprise I became hung up on the words redeemer, redeemed, and kinsman redeemer. I just wanted to hear more about the redeemer.

Redeemed: 1. To recover ownership of by paying a specified sum.
2. To pay off ( a promissary note, for example).
3. To turn in (coupons, for example) and receive something in exchange.
4. To fulfill (a pledge, for example).
5. To convert into cash: redeem stocks.
6. To set free; rescue or ransom.
7. To save from a state of sinfulness and its consequences.
8. To make up for.
9. To restore the honor, worth, or reputation of.

I am continually grateful for the surprises God places in my life, both the good and the bad. I have realized through the years that I need to know God as my redeemer.

The feelings and false ideas left within me as a result of my parents divorce were overwhelming. Feelings that I had done quite well pushing down to the depths of me. And I needed to know that I was worth redeeming. There is honor and worth within me. My ransom has been paid by the blood of Jesus Christ. I have been saved from a state of sinfulness and its consequences.

I know that my Redeemer LIVES!